After that
first positive emotion, you start feeling sad, and that sadness gradually turns
into anger and then you feel outraged. The problem gets worse if you start to
see some truth into the comments written into your work. “Am I really this
ignorant? How could I make so many mistakes? Why had I never heard about this
before? Why did I have to get
embarrassed like this? Is this truly how things are?”...
Each
comment on the page turns into agony. Each one reminds you that you failed and
it hurts your ego, the thing that gets hurt the most in the process. You get
sad and depressed, you feel like your stomach is empty and you wish you had
never been born, or that you had never written anything.
To make
matters worse, the manuscript can’t just lie there. There’s a contract, a
commitment, a deadline. They expect you to solve all doubts, to approve or
reject changes, to expand concepts and to clean the manuscript to take it to
the next stage.